To Leave the Nest


Breakdown = Breakthrough

Friday evening, I had a breakdown.

Saturday morning, I realized it was a breakthrough.

For several months now, I’ve felt as if I needed to write a book. Because of the type of goal-setter that I am, I’ve been putting A LOT of pressure on myself to write one. This leads to 3 a.m. wake-ups filled with questions and anxiety. Not helpful.

Friday evening, after a particularly frustrating call with my man, I recognized a long standing habit I have. This habit started with my father and seems to repeat itself through all of my love relationships. It lead me to missing my father, deeply. It lead me to grieving, again, over the loss of him and the fact that I was never able to have the relationship I wanted to have with him. It lead me to the computer where I, again, attempted to begin a book. (This is the third time.) That lead me to becoming severely overwhelmed and frustrated. I finally had to go to bed.

I went back and looked at my old blog. I poured my soul into that blog for 6 1/2 years. During the time I was writing, I had over a half a million views. Some posts have +1’s on Google that are in the tens of thousands. I wrote anonymously. I felt it was the only way I could be authentic.

I don’t want to hide my authenticity anymore. I was hurting when I wrote much of those old posts. I want to revive the posts that were helpful. That is what I am going to do here.

Please be patient with me as I find my voice. A book will have to wait. Being me will not.

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  • Posted: February 2, 2015 14:59


    I LOVE this friend. I can't wait to read more. xoxoxo
    • Posted: February 2, 2015 17:24


      Hooray! So happy that y'all are following me here. Now to get back in the habit! :) xxoo
  • Posted: February 2, 2015 16:48


    Of course you know I'll be reading right along. xo
    • Posted: February 2, 2015 17:24


      Thank you so much! I may do a "from the archives" now and then to highlight some posts from the old blog. We'll see. xxoo
  • Posted: February 2, 2015 18:05

    Vicki Larson

    T, I am so sorry about the loss of your father. It doesn't matter how long ago; the pain is always real. You have your voice,a wonderful one at that. Maybe direction? We're there for ya!
    • Posted: February 2, 2015 18:28


      Thank you, Vicki! Always so kind and supportive! xxoo
  • Posted: February 2, 2015 18:21


    thanks for the heads up I will be reading!
    • Posted: February 2, 2015 18:27


      Thank you, Livvy! I need to get back in the habit! xxoo
  • Posted: February 2, 2015 18:28

    terri g

    Love you big. <3
    • Posted: February 2, 2015 18:40


      You rock so much. Thank you, love! xxoo
  • Posted: February 2, 2015 19:38

    Freetime, Ltd.

    Oh, I feel you. I am going through almost the exact same breakdown/breakthrough, right down to the desire to write a book, NEEDing to write (for real) again, frustration with the man on Friday, and missing my dad so much over the weekend that I broke down in tears. Really... super weird coincidences here! I, of course, will be following along. Looking forward to seeing where this leads you!
    • Posted: February 2, 2015 20:05


      Thanks so much. I guess we're on the same page right now, huh? Thinking of you and sending love. I'm starting The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron to see if it clears up any cobwebs. Good luck! xxoo
  • Posted: February 3, 2015 20:26

    Josh Davis

    It's the powerful events and emotions in our lives that make us who we are. Where you write, and what you write about are just the little details. You are wonderful and loving, and that's all that matters.
    • Posted: February 5, 2015 19:06


      Thanks so much for your continued support, Josh. xxoo